life. what about it? i dunno. yes i'm having a conversation with myself... your point?

song of the day:blue by eiffel 65 <--- soo popular song when i was like in 2nd grade :) i love it tho, so random!!

xxx

so this is going to be a short cuz i have to go start dinner, but what do you guys think of the new layout? not sure if i like it as much... maybe i'll post a new one tommorow and see which you guys like? i dunno if i'll keep the name either... feedback??? i do like the pic tho... its my siblings with balloons after our sports banquet back on feb outside my school (barf) oh yeah, keeping this short. so let me describe today really fast then next post will be about cali and az k? k. today. yes. today. errrrrm well... it was school! i got to make a tick beak for a grl in our school play fri

(elementary play!) and oh yeah, i forgot my PE shirt so i just took off my polo and put on my swearshirt so my friend followed me around all day making comments like " Hey Kara, isnt it a little hot to be wearing a sweatshirt? Maybe you should take it off!" and " Whats under your sweatshirt Kara? cuz when you reached for that monkey bar i saw midriff..." yeah, i am so never doing that again!!!!!! lets seeeeeee.... and i got a new straightener (yay) so my hair was straight all day and not blehhhhhhh and wavy.sick. umm i fell asleep in history again and my teacher looked like she might kill me (nothing new) and my painting is almost done! its a polo guy on a horse, hopefully i will have it done on friday!

xxx

dooooooooood i'm so bummed cuz i'm grounded from court and plushie for a week (loooong story) so i cant go to youth group tonite :,(! i havent been in like 2 weeks... my evil parents, i swear they delight in my misery!

sorry this is soo boring, my loves, but i must away to make dinner XP

----shae

get all the attention, no dancing on the tables required

hee hee. the title is on the back of this bottle of hair stuff mumzy bought me and i find it absolutely hilarious... we were changing into PE uniform today in the grls bathroom and i whip it out to put some in my hair and i read that out loud and the pastors daughter was horrified. well that might have had something to do with my comment of "ooh, if i use it and then dance on tables, i'll get ALLLLLL the attention... right?" i'm so bad. i love seeing those looks on her face :) score one for the bad chick...
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so 2mmoro i leave on my trip for CA and AZ with my school. kinda excited, kinda not. excited cuz heck, its away from HERE! its the grand canyon and the ocean and no school for a week, but not excited because its skirts and panty hose and KJV Bible ONLY for a week. so its kind of a two faced vacation. overall, my excitement generally stomps all over the dread but as it gets closer, dread slowly creeps up on me.... but i have promised court and plushie rocks from the grand canyon and a key chain and earings for leah. pretty easy to deal with! and oh! i will briefly sum up here so i can move on, me court and plushie went treasure hunting in some rubble wednesday night and found things such as but not limited to the following: omen flowers, caution tape, an old menu, a boot, and a glass bottle. so the glass bottle (its little) i cleaned up and as i was trying to get the cap to clean up and come off it fell apart in my hands. so i found a cork which fits perfect and i plan to put something extraordinary in it. i wont know what to put there until i see it, then i'm sure i will know beyond a shadow of a doubt. also, my latest project has involved glass and a ring! i found a plain metal ring that fits my pinky finger, and part of a blue glass bottle. so i smashed the bottle into small pieces and am planning on wrapping a piece of glass in wire and somehow putting it on the ring. i need to find my jewelry wire... but the glass looks like some kind of jewel, it really does! so i am xcited
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i am also excited about watching the sunrise 2morro morning! not sure who all will be there, prolly courtney and maybe plushie? it will be nice to be in our secret time again at the enchanted hill! luckily our plane doesnt leave till 5 PM 2morro nite so i can go to the hill, watch the sunrise, come home and sleep a little more and then pack anything i forgot. oh, weird random thing here. our chaperone has a kidney stone! read awkward conversation below:
me: hey pastor, how are you feeling
pastor: in a lot of pain
annelise: ouch
pastor: you should try having one something
me: eeeeeeewwwwwww
annelise: no thanks, i'll pass
pastor: yeah, i wish it would pass too!
for those of you who dont get it, lets just say that they cant surgically remove - or dont usually neways- kidney stones, they have to pass and exit the body. yesh. eew. so he ended up going to the er like 5 minutes later... but now he's alrite. yay.
later.. i gotta pack my homies!
shae
PS almost forgot, song of the day: if i am by nine days

epic letdown... bras always make good conversation!

song of the day: until the end by breaking benjamin

it really is. an epic letdown i mean. why? because for a week, i got up and went running.by the end of the week i was up runing, watching the sunrise, and having adventures all before nine o clock! see, theres something magic about being up early. it reminds me of the midnighters, only instead of a secret hour at midnight, theres a secret time from like six to eightish where the rest of the world is clueless, but those of us who know about it get to enjoy just being alive. doing whatever we want because theres just no one there to stop us, now is there? so this week, getting up at 6:40 to do hair/makeup/breakfast/homework/whatever, is sucking majorly. i miss the secret time where everything is magic... now its school. which... i will not complain too much, but i dont like it, lets leave it there. and we have no freedom... i so cant wait til its out for summer.

x x x

in the meantime, let me splain why i didnt post sunday evening, or yesterday. i was kinda sorta maybe vaguely unjustly punished... bcuz i was out with court and plushie rocking the town and got hime ten minutes late. big whoop, its not like i was doing anything dangerous or against the law (sorry mum, that was earlier in the morning when we were in the logging place and on the trains) and ten minutes, really? fine. anyways, so we (me court and plushie) met at the park on sun afternoon (well, kinda. court fell off and took a chunk out of her leg, so we more crossed paths than anything) and got peace tea (epic.) xcept plushie, who got snapple cuz... i dunno, he just did. but i digress. so then we dropped our bikes off at plushie's house and walked to the tracks where we found a carcass of something, a pig maybe? and oh, thebra thing in the title. yesh, that refers to the idea courtney had for her peace tea, to shove it in her bra... and plushie said something about how the guy who was walking by must think it was an awkward conversation and the guy was like " nope. bras always make good conversation!" so we then found a golfball, went to courts house, tried to break it open (didnt happen yet :/), went to the sign to find a letterbox (yaaaay) and walked home. fun. fun.fun. and for the record, if you ever see courtney biting her nails, slap her hand. and if plushie ever does something like this (he's italicized here):

"yeah, so i told her to go away"

" haha, that reminds me of something!"

"what?"

"can't tell you... its a secret"

you must make him tell the secret. that simple!

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okay, well this is getting to be looong and i have to go neways. time to pack :-s hopefully, if i get most of it done my parents might change their minds and let me go to youth group 2mmoro!!!

love,

shae

i'll be out of my mind, and you'll be out of ideas

song of the day: hot air balloon by owl city

oh dear, oh dear what an excellent day so far! i almost didnt get out of bed this morning, but i dragged myself up anyways and into the morning i rode! by the time i got to the hill, the sky was already orangey pink and courtney and plushie were there. we sat for a little while, then since the saw mill place was closed we went to explore and jumped in mud puddles (xcept plushie cuz he's not as man as me and court are... and he's definitely not a big man) and we climbed piles of logs and dirt... and then we ended up at the tracks where we climbed on the top of train cars and leaped from car to car (yay courtney!!!!! you're so braaaaaaaave!). it was awesome. the only downside was that the top things were ziptied shut so, much to my chagrin, i couldnt pry them open. oh yeah, and about 6 or 7 cars down were realized that courtneys hoodie was back at the car we started at... whoops. so plushie went back and got it for her... then we realized that there WERE gloves with the hoodie at one point, so he had to go back and get those too. haha. work out for plushie day! theeeen we went back to the hill and tried to pick the lock, let me rephrase, plushi tried to pick the lock and was unsucessful... so we tried to get on the roof... also unsuccessful. so then we left. and halfway down the street we heard these horrible shrieks like something was being beaten to death! we soon discovered that it was a tiny puppy (yellow lab maybe?) that was out in the cold... so pretty soon it got stuck between the bars on the porch so me and court had to go get the dude who lived there to help unstick the puppy. i guess he was puppy sitting... but i hope he wasnt gettingpaide bcuz he was doing a lousy job!! poor thing... i wanted to take it home but well that was kinda out of the question. and now, it is 12:18 and soon i shall be riding to the park to meet court and plushie again and we will have an adveeeeeeeeenture!
love
shae

these words that i'll never say

its me.again. are you guys sick of hearing every detail of my life yet? because if you are, I have a message for you... GET OVER IT! mwahahahaha. or you could just stop reading? yeah. but then you'd miss out on the awesomeness. so what i was going to say in this post was... well a few things. firstly, i read a book called the mystery of the dog in the night today on the way to/from feis. dumbest book! (spoilers ahead!!) so its from the point of view from an autistic kid, which is interesting... but the book starts that a dog is found stabbed through to the ground with a garden fork thing. and then the boy wants to poke around to figure out whats going on, and discovers

1. that his mother, whom his father told him was DEAD is living far away with the neighbor man, whom she fell in love with

2. his dad stabbed the dog

3. he is afraid his father will murder him too so he leaves for his mums house

yeah.dumb.

secondly, i wanted to mention that i am going to the hill tommorow morning! yay! the last morning until saturday morning, when i may or may not sleep in :/. but yes, i shall drag myself out of bed tomorrow and bring extra bobbypins and paperclips to pick locks... i mean erm to uh explore. yes, we shall leave it at EXPLORE! and thirdly... hmm i know i had something to say... oh yeah!!!!!!!! so our school used to be heinzman school of irish dance, but we merged with a school from canada and are now ardan academy...which means we had canadians running all over today! it was funny because you could immediately tell who was who by the way they said

"aboout!" AND (this amazed me) i actually heard a canadian say "eh"! she was like " Sierra, get your shoes on, eh" and i was like whoaaaaaaaaah. yes, i am easily amused.

okay, off to bed with me!

love.peace.andsunrises.

shae

run for the hills the kitchens on fire!!

song of the day: mario kart love song <3>

today. was.long.er.than.most.days.but.it.was.okay.because.it.was.feis.

Why Feisianna (plural of feis) can be a Pain

1. Its not just your dancing you're worried about, its having your shoes polished, skewering your wig to your head (moaaaaaaaaaan), getting your makeup right, remembering the right socks and gluing them to your legs (no joke, this is called sock glue and its a PAIN!), and trying not to die of heatstroke inside your evil dress

2. the judges are rarely there on time, and when they arent, you have to wait for them

3. sometimes the people helping out have NO clue what they are doing so when you ask them a question like "where's the bathroom?" they may direct you to the pool. big dif.

4.everyone "camps" by their stage (there are anywhere from 2 -> 10 stages) so trying to get from say stage one to stage three quickly, can result in many problems such as but not limited to the following: stepping on someone, tripping over waterbottles, stepping in food and getting tangled in the maze of folding chairs.

and last...

5. some dancers (female, not male) run around in their spankies (like bikini bottoms, cover your underwear bcuz when you kick your skirt goes wooooosh) and tanktops... and these are fifteen sixteen year old girls! this is not a victorias secret fashion show ladies. and whats worse is when big fat ladies do this... *shudder*

xxx

but, my day. started at 5 and is still going. we drove for 1 and 1/2 hours to Livonia where there was this big sportsplex (incredible!!) with a pool, a rock wall, treadmills, gymnastics gym, running track, gym for basketball etc, and MORE! crazy. so anyways, we were in what appeared to be a floor hockey ring/ sometimes gym, and it was nuts. we got there about an hour and 1/2 early which is alrite and we helped set up, then me and the sibs got our hair pieces/makeup done and i helped with registration! all i did was when a competitor with a last name a-d came up with their last name, i searched through my files and found their number card. easy peasy. as for my actual dancing, twas much fun. me and the other girls i danced against were being absolute goofs!! the teachers all say to hate "the enemy" but i CANT! so instead i chatted with them and we all agreed that we were going to suck but that was okay. well, i didnt really suck. i did alrite with 3 first and 2 thirds... if this had been a REAL feis ( this was just school feis), i would have moved up in those three dances and been able to get my open dress!!! agh. ohwell, enuf dance jargon!

xxx

well, i'm dreading school on monday *whimpers pitifully* and the people there *groans audibly* as they are all very confusing and dumb. i would much rather stay home where i can get up and watch the sunrise... take a long shower... dance for awhile... read.... have an adventure.... i dunno. anything but school. SAVE ME PLEASE!!!

love

shae

even if saving you sends me to heaven

so let me sum up today because that last post was KILLER! okay, today.

woke up 6:40, thought man i'm tired i'll sleep for a couple more minutes, fell back asleep and didnt wake till 7:30 to my lovely fathers voice telling me to get up, it's time to go soon! so i got up, muttering darkly under my breath and realizing that there would be no run or sunrise this morning, and it was totally my own fault (i stayed up late.....). then me and dad left and went to the coffe shop where i got a double short latte (drink of the gods!) and we talked about life, then we drove into town and i went to goodwill to shop for awhile, then he picked me up and we went to redwing shoes so he could get shoe polish, then horrocks (the classiest grocery store ever, duuude, they have a live piano player!) to get flowers for mumzy (cuz dad's just sweet like that), then the gordan foods for popcorn for mumzy (they had samples of hotdogs, burgers, fries and onion rings and a loud lady serving them who ganged up on me with my dad to razz me about not wearing a coat), then home. then i went to my room, sanded walls in my closet, organized my dresser drawers (mumzy's orders), and now i am babysitting. yay.
xxx
2morro is feis (pronounced fesh, its a dance competition) and i am not thrilled. i dont think i'm gonna do very well..... altho i thought that last year and got first in all five dances so who knows. i'll let you know 2morro. but for now, i must go make some toast!
love love love
shae

if you were a new hamburger at McDonald's, you would be a McGorgeous.

song of the day: everything is alright by motion city soundtrack

xxx

hmm for some reason my picture there will only load like that and not right side up. oh well, you look funny with your head turned sideways my lovely bloggers! anyways, i went to goodwill today and got these sweet shoes.... they're kinda strange, but thats me. as you can see they are silver splattered, and they dont tie in the front they tie over to the side which is kinda wacky but that adds to the craziness. loooooove it!

xxx

so i didnt get to blog yesterday due to the fact that when i had a chance to blog (ie my internet wasnt turned off) my wonderful parents made me sand my walls, wash my walls, and paint my sisters room. ugh. i had white dust in my hair and clothes and white paint all over my feet. blehhhhhhhh! but back to what i did before that... i went to the hill early morning and met courtney (yay!) and we plotted nefariously, trying to unlock this random building built into the hole with one of my bobby pins... then we tryed to climb on the roof. we carried this cement block to the top, and just as we were getting it in place it rolled back down... so we rolled it up that time and stood on it, but it still wasnt tall enough. just as we were still trying to climb on the roof, a rude man in a pick up truck drove by and motioned for us to go away. thanks mister, good morning to you too!! grouchy much? we were prolly breaking some minor law or somethin.watev. so after that we made plans to go to the coffee shop later, and rode back to our houses. as i rode down my street, i began dreaming of a warm shower and a piece of crunchy toast with extra peanut butter... but when i got home i remembered that i was supposed to be taking the kids for "a run." so i shed my pj pants so i was in my shorts and we (we being me, leah, rachel, abby and doug) started jogging. yeah, about that... jogging lasted about 3 minutes, the rest of the time they preffered to walk. IT WAS FREEZING! my legs were soo numb. and of course they wanted to walk all the way around town, then up to the school to play on the playground (verrry cool by the way, specially the moving blue thingy), then finally home. thank God. At ten, i went up to meet courtney at the coffee shop (we had planned to talk to the owner about changing her hours but... that plan kinda died) where we got cinnamon rolls (yuuuummmmmm) and i beat her at lakewoodopoly (like monopoly... kinda... we didnt really know what we were doing anyways). then we both went home and i spent the rest of my day being tortured. yup, fun. oh yeah, and i went to the dentist. which brings me to this.

REASONS DENTISTS ARE NOT MY FAVORITE PPL

1. they tell you to open your mouth, then just assume that you'll be alright with them sticking pokey things in between your teeth

2. they try to have conversations with you, but they always go like this:

"so do you watch american idol ?"

" uh-uh"

" the other night usher was on... and his song was really innappropriate"

"ahhh"

" he was singing about, and i quote 'booties and boobies'"

"ughhhhhh"

"exactly"

and what they dont realize, is that you dont really want to hear about that! really my dental hygenist told me that yesterday, no joke! and you cant even tell them you dont care because they have sharp things in your mouth and if you close it to form words they'll stick you!

3. they shine a big light in your eyes when they clean your teeth

4. they use gauze to move your tongue out of the way (ewwwwwwww!!!!)

5. they wear gloves (this has more to do with how my dentist puts them on, they're latex so they kinda squeak, then he snaps them so they fit to his wrist... its purely villanous!)

6. they always have some lame radio station on

7. they all have PERFECT teeth.... how much more humiliating can it get?

8. they "polish" your teeth with an electric toothbrush and then scold you when you laugh cuz it tickles!

9. they dont have any good magazines in the waiting room. puh-leez, like i really care who cheated on sandra bullock...

AND

10. they try to convince you that you too should become a dentist, because in a few years you'll be in college, and why not become a dentist? its sooooooooo fun!

i should post this and do another post about today becuz this one is just too long! so, hold tight here comes another one ;)

love

shae

short

goodnight! youth group was really fun.............. 2morro its up early to make it to the hill again! i would type more but my internet is about to shut off :/
love love love
shae

hit the lights!

song of the day: your guardian angel red jumpsuit apparatus <3 <3 <3

**pic taken yesterday while it rained**




when your day begins a 6:30, you find you can get alot done! here it is a smidge past 11 and i've already watched a sunrise, taken a shower, done hair/makeup, eaten breakfast, cleaned my room, done half a math lesson dowloaded 5 songs, and studied some of my history. whew! this morning my running was alright, my ankle and shin have been bothering me lately so i did more walking and thinking than anything, but it was still nice. i got to the hill around 7:00 and stayed til 7:25ish and watched the lovely sunrise... it was still cloudy so not as breathtaking as it might have been, but it was still incredible. as i was walking back from the hill, i met the owner of a local art place (Tim) and chatted for awhile ( sorry Mom, i talked to a stranger)... he said anytime i want a tour i can just stop by and knock on the door! he had the most adorable dog with him named Henry, an australian somethin or other who licked my face happily as i scractched him behind the ears... dogs are so easy to please!


more later, i gotta go practice dance :/


lovelovelove


shae

oh what a day

song of the day: 1,2,3,4 by plain white tees ( so cheesy... but adorable!)

*sigh...* just sprayed the wonderful marvelous axe......... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sorry. ignore that... i am so embarrassing sometimes! anways. my day was pretty great, i awoke at 6:40 and left by 6:50 so I could get to the hill. i parked my bike and ran to the hill, getting there at exactly 7:00 and expecting an epic sunrise. yeah, about that. since it was so cloudy there were no pink or oranges, just eggshell and pale blue. still lovely, but not as erm dramatic. i did enjoy it tho, it was a nice way to start my day. i laid at the top of the hill and pretended i was invisible as i watched the birds fly over my head and listend to the people already at work at the logging place... in such a chaotic world its nice to have somewhere to breathe! well, i'll be up and at it again tommorow morning in hopes for a more stellar sunrise, altho just being on the hill while most of the town sleeps is amazing enough. *sigh.
***
the rest of my day was alrite, i had dance which went alrite.. 1hour today! so i was really sweaty and tired on the ride home XP. but i have a competition on saturday so i need to be practicing 2 hrs a day until then... yeah like thats gonna happen!
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i did catch a snake tho! and there was a lovely thunderstorm midday that made me verrrry happy, altho the first thunderclap scared the daylights out of me!! it was really incredible... loud and powerful... words cant explain! so the snake... i love bugs and spiders and snakes so i was like YEAH!!!!!! this little dude was down in our drain in our front yard, i think its to cold for him to be energetic yet so he was pretty mellow and let me pick him up and take some pics (shall post later!) and i was thrilled because we dont get many snakes around here :/
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k, well my internet is about to shut off so i have to go altho i could write pages more!
love to you all!
shae

i couldnt breathe to save my life

song of the day: she (for liz) by parachute

what an incredible day... i started the day out somewhat on time okay, 2 hours late but cut me some slack, its spring break! anyways, i got up at 8 and went for a run... parked my bike at the park with some water for when i was done and then i was off. so i ran for like 15 mintutes and then this little voice in my head said "you should go to the hill" sooo i did. and i swear it was like... i dunno how to explain it, if you've ever read stargirl or love stargirl then you know about enchanted places well i think the hill is one. tommorow i plan to get up at 6:30 and run then watch the sunrise... maybe i'll take my camera and try to get some pictures... yes, i am slightly crazy. but i'm very excited... its my incentive for running! my dad says the sun rises around 7 so hopefully i can run till like 6:50 then go to the hill and watch the show...

x not always a good idea to listen to voices in your head... let me just say that so i dont have bloggers off murdering their grandmothers and then coming back and saying "well, shae listens to the voices in HER head, so I listend to the voices in mine.... ever read cage of stars? he listens to the voices in his head and murders two little girls. morbid. but best book ever!!!!!!!!!! anways....x

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weeeeeeeeeeeeel went to my grandmas today and earned a twenty for doing garden stuff... and also got two lovely scratches on my right leg from a vicious picker weed freak thing. sick. actually, two large obvious scratches and then a few little ones around them. its funny cuz at the time i didnt even feel it! i dont feel alot of pain in my legs and feet because of dance injuries 24/7, but you'd think i'd have felt this... whatever. i'm strange. psycho. AWESOME!! :)

***

i must be off to play princesses with my neighbor (jenna) and two little sisters. wish me luck, i'm jaaaaaaaaaasmine :)

love to all

shae.payday.maylay (melee i think is the real spelling...)

life is sexually transmitted and always fatal

song of the day: a song the world can sing out loud by change of pace

k, so the song of the day is one i came across on the lovely pandora.com which i love to death... its internet radio where you say well i really like here it goes again by ok go, so you type that in and it will generate similar songs... then you can add more artists and songs for variation! its sweeeeeet. so anways, sweet song. not just the music, i like the words too. epicness.

***

so, easter. wheeeeeeel, we had some stuff at home (egg hunt and reading crucifixion etc), then we went up to a local church for an egg hunt, then we went to my grandmas for ANOTHER egg hunt and food. it was pretty fun. we got to play kickball at my grandmas which was crazy awesome ( heehee i'm such a kid!) and we had icecream with strawberries (real ones, not the kind you get in a jar). and now here i ammm! oh yes, i got a new ring (yesh!) and leah (my sister) got the same one so we've been doing wonder twin powers, activate! all day :) if you dont know what that is, dont ask me. my dad just talks about old cartoons all the time and i guess thats one of them. whatever dad. he's nuts, i swear! he's an incredible singer, he really is... majored in voice actually but never chose to further it which sux cuz he could have been the next josh groban and i could have... well, what, popular friends? expensive clothes? *realization hits me in the forehead like a hammer* i dont want fame. i love my life. i love my friends. i love my house. i love my boxes of notebooks. i love my cat. i love my bed. i love the 50 cent rings on my fingers! so forget it. sorry guys, i tend to think out loud.deal with my randomness or stop reading :).

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pray for my little cousin~please! now i have to start at the beginning i guess cuz this is complicated... so my mother adopted brother from korea (my uncle) had a girlfriend. she got pregnant, he left, we still consider the girl (sophie) to be our cousin and my grandparents consider her to be their grandbaby. with that said, let me also mention that her mom is... okay i'll just be blunt, she is up to her chin the the occult and is a self-declared wiccan and sells spiritually charged amulets on ebay O.o i know. AND sophie lives in a house with all smokers. one of whom (grandma shirley she calls her) had cancer behind her eye and has had it removed. now sophie has seen the black socket where the eye used to be and according to miracle (the mother) it doesnt bother the kid. yeah right. let me also add that this little girl was pantzed at school by some pig-boy a couple weeks ago and is terrified of him. she is in second grade. now to the worst of all part... this little girl is so stressed, she litterally tore out her eye lashes and eyebrows... she RIPPED OUT HER HAIR so that she has bald spots on her head. she's hurting herself at 8 years old!!!!!! my heart just hurts for her... she's so young... please pray for her! she needs it right now... we're going to have her over tuesday night hopefully so she can get away for awhile, but one night wont make it all better :,(. i love you sophie...

love to you all

shae

how things change...

guess what? MY CAMERA IS WORKING!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY! happy happy happy! so i went upstairs and genuinely apologized to my sister and family for being such a butt and being grouchy and explained to abby that accidents happen and i forgave her... then, my mom put new batteries in it and it worked! maybe i just needed to apologize... or maybe the batteries just were dead. will i ever know? prolly not. but now i feel like blogging a bit so i'm stealing something from opendiary.com, there theme for the week is
"what song do you never what to hear again"
between with you by chris brown, poker face by lady gaga, and nothin to lose by josh gracin. the first is simple... kind of. my first boyfriend told me that they wrote that song for us, he loved me, and crap like that but then he was an idiot so i dumped him. the thing is, the song isnt happy or sweet for me anymore, its sad because i remember him and that he wasnt always a retard... yes he was. no.yes. stupid arguements with myself ensue and so i just hate it. the next one is poker face which i hate first of all bcuz its sick, and second of all because it was played on virtually every station for soooooo long! the last one is nothin to lose by josh gracin (country, agh) its a cute song, it really is... but me, my mom, and my sister danced to it at a local talent show last summer so its all i heard inthe month leading up to the show! my feet still try to dance every time i hear it. barf.

time to color eggs, wish me luck in the kingdom of Upstairs... funny, that rhymes with Despair..
love to all
shae

not gonna lie...

song of the day: dont ask me by ok go
<--- i have a problem, my pics are never from the song of the day.. why? i dunno
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i shoulllld be happy~ its rainy and cool and lovely... i have a bag full of little candies... i have a plate full of my decorated cookies... i have a camera full of pictures... thats just it. the camera. my darling dearest youngest demoness friend.... whoops, i mean SISTER there... dropped my camera and it is broken. totally pissed off about that, i'm not gonna lie. let me vent for a few moments ppl, k? k. so i'm going on a trip to cali and AZ and the grandcanyon and the ocean four days after spring break... and i was planning on doing like a photo diary of it ( with my new 4 gig card!) but there goes that idea. i take pictures all the time. not that i'm any good at it, just because i enjoy capturing my life in pictures... sometimes its easier than words. not to mention the fact that this is my third camera in two years that has broke ( 1. randomly died for no reason 2. i tripped up some stairs and fell on it 3. lovely sister dropped it). *sigh. i dont want to talk about this anymore.... :(


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changing subjects... to what? not sure... uhhhhh any ideas? let me think, how about this


THINGS I SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW


1. preparing to lead worship for the kids tonite


2. straightening my hair


3. reading my book report book


4. practicing dance


5. telling my darling sister that its okay and i'm not too mad *ahem lying ahem*


6. throwing my shorts in the wash so i can wear them to church


7. closing my window since i'm not allowed to have it open and my parents could come down at any moment


8. ??????????


whatttttttteeeeeevvvvvvvveeerrrrrrrrrr!


trying to chill... trying to think of Jesus... trying to breathe... trying to smiiiiiiiile


shae

makes me smile

song of the day: here it goes again by ok go <--- sweet music vid by the way :)

(ironically, the pic there is from here in your arms... call it ADD)

things that made me smile today:

1. waking up and realizing that my left hip was sore and that i had grass stains on my knees... then remembering why :)

2. eating something other than rice and beans for dinner (loooooong story)

3. climbing the tree in my backyard

4. being able to dance again... i twisted my ankle doing something dumb on monday and its now better! (i guess it was better yesterday too since i ran around on the hill with no problem at all)

5. waking up at 6 out of habit, then looking at my clock, turning over and going back to sleep

6. running barefoot in the grass

7. eating a blue rasperry dum dum as i type this... (yes, i'm easy to make happy)

8. phoenix axe (later... i will explain later....)

9. I HAVE A DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR AND WALLS!!!!!!!!!!!

10. playing dolls with my little next door neighbor

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i prolly could have gone on for awhile there, i smile alot... but let me explain a few things. firstly, the rice and beans are really a product of my parents craziness, altho the idea was pretty cool. anyways. they decided that we should eat only beans and rice from morning till 5:30 at night to get an understanding of people in third world countries, let me tell you after 2 meals and every snack needed , i may never eat beans or rice again... for dinner we had soup and fruit salad which seemed like the best EVER. secondly, phoenix axe. *sigh and smile* i'm sorry, this is so typical airhead teenage girl but the stuff smells niiiiiiice! k, i know you're wondering how the cookies did a girl get guys axe, right? yeah. so i was talking to my homebro the other day and i was like duuuuuude what is that smell, is that you?it smells great! and he was like my axe... and i was like i'm gonna steal it! and he was like you can have my old can, i just got a new one. so now i have a couple of ounces of man smell. one of my several weaknesses... and it makes me happy. embarrasing yes, but part of the reason i started blogging again was to spill it all here and loose dumb secrets like that somewhere in the mix.

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i think i might work on a new blog heading tonite... havent decided yet. i get easily bored and i'm sick of seeing the same pic. so by the time you read this, i may just have a new top picture thing.

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i started/finished wintergirls by laurie halse anderson today... it was so good, but so sad... the author is incredible, she writes very metaphorically, almost like poetry, and the plot was so morbidly fascinating i couldnt put it down. for those of you who havent read it, let me give you a brief summary. This girl's friend dies and the girl takes it really hard... also, she's anorexic and shutting everyone out, and cuts herself sometimes.... i'll stop there bcuz you need to read it yourself, but let me just say it was one of those books that makes you think, not just a fun read, an eyeopening read.

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well, i must away to the world of Upstairs where the Parents rule like tyrants and i simply try to stay out of the way (mostly, unless i'm feeling bad then i'll throw noodles at someone or something, i'm unpredictable...)anways, Upstairs. Wish me luck my lovely blogger friends!

love.peace.joy.andabigbowlofrasperrysherbert

shae