wishing, wanting, yours for the taking

song of the day: goodnight gravity, by falling up

hey! guess what? i survived another day!!!!!! thank God we go to church on saturday night ( no we are NOT seventh day adventists...) so i can sleep in sat AND sun, unlike most of my friends who have to get up at like 8 oclock so they can rush off to church. plus my church is really laid back, ie you can wear whatever you want and not get a weird look from an old person, and the music is loud and they give out cookies :) totally a good reason to go. every other week i do singing for the kids, so i get this sweet looking hannah montana headset to sing into, and i demonstrate motions and we go over the bible verse. pretty easy, and its fun because i get to hang out with my friends afterwards... and there is this ADORABLE tech guy (who i will call Shaggy for the time being) who is soooooooooooo fine! and there's a nother techie who's a total geek, so i'll call him Geek, but i have a tiny crush on him... but the kid i hang out with all the time is a chick i will refer to as Blondie. we usually walk around and scrounge for food.... pretty cool. hahaha! last week, we were walking around and i saw this guy who was totally into this thick book which i assumed was a book on blood and gore... when i walked by i glanced at the cover andwas SHOCKED to see two people soaking wet about to kiss. Oh my. Mind blown! Needless to say, me and Blondie had a good laugh over all that :) alrite well i could to go on forever but i have to go sleeeeeeeeeeeeep!

lots of love to my non-existent audience,

shae

to whom it may concern: you dont exist and my best friend is my worst enemy

song of the day: invisible by taylor swift

so i was thinking, no one reads this, how nice is that! but at the same time, its kind of sad.... here i am killing myself to make posts several times a week for no purpose? hmm well i guess thats about rite, isnt it? oh poo why am i asking you? you arent here, you're getting a manicure or eating a taco, or maybe even writing on your own blog. but certainly not reading mine. hey, its alrite, no hard feelings i'm cool with that.

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and now, why my best friend is also my worst enemy... name? classified. code name? zilch. status? today, she's my best friend. yesterday she was my worst enemy. depends. so why is this? because she turns on me like a rottweiler! like we'll be chilling, and then i'll say something mildly dumb or ditzy and she turns it in to a " ooh look how dumb shae is, lets tell the world and get them all to laugh at her" moment... and they all fall for it every time... she has this talent for turning people against me in a heartbeat... ie yesterday i was talking about this sick TV doc my mom was watching about this 1000 lb man who was having a tumor removed, and i was like "eew, it was siiiiiiiiiiick, they were like wading through his fat to find the right spot..." and she was like " hello, if its that sick then why are you describing it?" in a you're so blonde tone of voice and i was like

"uhhhhhhhhh" and she looked rather smug and laughed for a while. ok ok ok, b4 you think my worst enemy is a total idiot, let me tell you why she's also my best friend. today my math teacher had this weird music on so we got ahold of our art teachers yo-yo-ma (cello) CD and were listening to that... so as the totally intense music came on and we choreographed this epic battle scene, complete with invisible ufos, bazookas, aliens, and light sabers. in the end we both died tragically and breathed our last as the song finished. see~ its not all bad. but it is confusing.

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things i miss about summer

1. crickets ( the other night i thought i heard a cricket and was so excited that tears of joy sprung to my eyes! then i realized it was our squeaky washer. epic let down.)

2. the smell of wet dirt ( at church last week there was this bucket of dirt and someone walked by randomly and poured water in it... i immediately dropped to my knees and inhaled deeply~ heavenly; altho i did get some weird looks...)

3. laying in the grass under a endless blue sky

4. thunderstorms ( the kind where the lightning splits the sky and turns it purple)

5. popsicles :)

6. taking midnight walks in shorts and a tank top... just watching the stars

7. fireflies like mini stars you can catch!

8. jumping on the trampoline... higher, higher... up into the blue!

9. running through the sprinkler with my little siblings

10. playing in the rain in my swimsuit...

11. freedom

i'm wishin my life away with these things i'll never say

today was alrite, 3 of my classmates and one teacher ( all family) left today to go on a cruise and i am wicked jealous on SO many levels... but all that to say that it was pretty quiet. altho it did mean some horror for the rest of us as we decided to disenfect the desk he usually sits at and found a booger stuck in a pile of goo on the underside of the desk. *shudder* enough said. but beyond that horrid escapade~ since the teacher left, we had a sub who is alot of fun and also the art teacher. now i am not usually artistically inclined and cannot draw worth a donut, but somehow she makes it possible for me to atleast figure out what i'm doing. for example, we learned shading and sketching, and then did a big project where we all got to pick a picture and draw/shade it... so i went through some of my wacko fashion mags and found a crazy shot of buzz lightyear ducktaped to a chair~ altho strangely enough the main thing of the pic was sposed to be this weird red purse which i spent like no time on. anyways, the point of all that is that i DID get through it, and i loved it~ it was a little tedious, but the result is verry cool. unfortunately, this year we are not shading, this year we get to do ( drumroll plz... thank you) water color paintings.... agh. so i decided to challenge myself and chose a man on a horse with a polo stick poised.... k, so i got the man ( who looks funky bcuz he has these purplish shades all over his butt....), and the polo stick, but i'm about ready to rip up my paper on account of the horse. someone save me! someday, when i have the horrid thing done, i will take a pic and upload it on here for all you invisible people to laugh at :).


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it snowed today, and while i wish it was spring again, i cannot help but be a bit disloyal and love the snow just for being beautiful! i took the dog (mooshi) for a walk when i got home from school and felt like an actress in one of those romantic moments where the guy comes up behind a girl in a snow storm and says he loves her right before the perfect kiss... i had the snow tangled in my eyelashes and everything ( i know cuz it was hard to see). only one problem, i dont think a movie girl ever had a small stubby ewok dog snuffling down the road in front of her; see the one moment i stopped to close my eyes and feel the snow, i felt a jerk and had to open my eyes bcuz the dog was off the running trying to pull me down the road behind him. *sigh.


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so i have this problem. i've had a on and off teeeeeeeeeeeeny crush on this guy for like 5 years and i'm kind of hating myself for it. he's such an idiot, and yet.... see i know all the list of horrible things he has done and is still doing, but it doesnt seem to faze me~ how dumb it that? so heres me, feeling pathetic and second-best, telling the whole world about my problems. is that a sign of insanity? maybe. but it feels good to get it out of my head, so good luck to you poor people that have to put up with my insanity...
laytah.
song of the day: i will be, avril lavigne

another day. another smile. another lifetime in denial. two more seconds. and i'm done. out of here i gotta run. but i cant because i know. i have no where left to go...run away to get away. run away to bring some change. run away to live today. run to leave my yesterday... so i try to get it right. time and time night after night. but i cant run to a place. that denies my yesterday. so i cry and cry and cry. but i just cant say goodbye. so i stand here in the rain. all my tears they fall in vain...run away to get away.run away to bring some change.run away to live today. run to leave my yesterday.goodbye.

hello

hello. welcome to my blog~ my life that is. now that i have my own laptop, this blog is officially going to be my online diary... aka you guys get to hear about my life, my tears, my crushes... everything. but i honestly dont want to spend a lifetime here telling you about my favorite color, favorite cereal, and whether or not i brush my teeth, i have so many better things to do. like fill you in on whats going on and then study for stupid history and go to sleeeeeeep!
so, today. well, we had a snow day which was really nice cuz i am feeling soo crappy. like seriously, i cough every thirty seconds and if i reach for a tissue to blow my nose one more time i think my body will begin evolving a tissue maker at the ends of my fingers to save me the effort! eww. well, 2morro its back to school *ahem purgatory ahem* and theres nothing i can do about it. see sometimes i love school and sometimes i hate it... long story. but my internet shuts off in three minutes (thanks to my great father) so i must say goodnite.... but i'll be back tomorow with more of the stories you never wanted to hear :)
love, me