hit the lights!

song of the day: your guardian angel red jumpsuit apparatus <3 <3 <3

**pic taken yesterday while it rained**




when your day begins a 6:30, you find you can get alot done! here it is a smidge past 11 and i've already watched a sunrise, taken a shower, done hair/makeup, eaten breakfast, cleaned my room, done half a math lesson dowloaded 5 songs, and studied some of my history. whew! this morning my running was alright, my ankle and shin have been bothering me lately so i did more walking and thinking than anything, but it was still nice. i got to the hill around 7:00 and stayed til 7:25ish and watched the lovely sunrise... it was still cloudy so not as breathtaking as it might have been, but it was still incredible. as i was walking back from the hill, i met the owner of a local art place (Tim) and chatted for awhile ( sorry Mom, i talked to a stranger)... he said anytime i want a tour i can just stop by and knock on the door! he had the most adorable dog with him named Henry, an australian somethin or other who licked my face happily as i scractched him behind the ears... dogs are so easy to please!


more later, i gotta go practice dance :/


lovelovelove


shae

oh what a day

song of the day: 1,2,3,4 by plain white tees ( so cheesy... but adorable!)

*sigh...* just sprayed the wonderful marvelous axe......... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sorry. ignore that... i am so embarrassing sometimes! anways. my day was pretty great, i awoke at 6:40 and left by 6:50 so I could get to the hill. i parked my bike and ran to the hill, getting there at exactly 7:00 and expecting an epic sunrise. yeah, about that. since it was so cloudy there were no pink or oranges, just eggshell and pale blue. still lovely, but not as erm dramatic. i did enjoy it tho, it was a nice way to start my day. i laid at the top of the hill and pretended i was invisible as i watched the birds fly over my head and listend to the people already at work at the logging place... in such a chaotic world its nice to have somewhere to breathe! well, i'll be up and at it again tommorow morning in hopes for a more stellar sunrise, altho just being on the hill while most of the town sleeps is amazing enough. *sigh.
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the rest of my day was alrite, i had dance which went alrite.. 1hour today! so i was really sweaty and tired on the ride home XP. but i have a competition on saturday so i need to be practicing 2 hrs a day until then... yeah like thats gonna happen!
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i did catch a snake tho! and there was a lovely thunderstorm midday that made me verrrry happy, altho the first thunderclap scared the daylights out of me!! it was really incredible... loud and powerful... words cant explain! so the snake... i love bugs and spiders and snakes so i was like YEAH!!!!!! this little dude was down in our drain in our front yard, i think its to cold for him to be energetic yet so he was pretty mellow and let me pick him up and take some pics (shall post later!) and i was thrilled because we dont get many snakes around here :/
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k, well my internet is about to shut off so i have to go altho i could write pages more!
love to you all!
shae

i couldnt breathe to save my life

song of the day: she (for liz) by parachute

what an incredible day... i started the day out somewhat on time okay, 2 hours late but cut me some slack, its spring break! anyways, i got up at 8 and went for a run... parked my bike at the park with some water for when i was done and then i was off. so i ran for like 15 mintutes and then this little voice in my head said "you should go to the hill" sooo i did. and i swear it was like... i dunno how to explain it, if you've ever read stargirl or love stargirl then you know about enchanted places well i think the hill is one. tommorow i plan to get up at 6:30 and run then watch the sunrise... maybe i'll take my camera and try to get some pictures... yes, i am slightly crazy. but i'm very excited... its my incentive for running! my dad says the sun rises around 7 so hopefully i can run till like 6:50 then go to the hill and watch the show...

x not always a good idea to listen to voices in your head... let me just say that so i dont have bloggers off murdering their grandmothers and then coming back and saying "well, shae listens to the voices in HER head, so I listend to the voices in mine.... ever read cage of stars? he listens to the voices in his head and murders two little girls. morbid. but best book ever!!!!!!!!!! anways....x

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weeeeeeeeeeeeel went to my grandmas today and earned a twenty for doing garden stuff... and also got two lovely scratches on my right leg from a vicious picker weed freak thing. sick. actually, two large obvious scratches and then a few little ones around them. its funny cuz at the time i didnt even feel it! i dont feel alot of pain in my legs and feet because of dance injuries 24/7, but you'd think i'd have felt this... whatever. i'm strange. psycho. AWESOME!! :)

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i must be off to play princesses with my neighbor (jenna) and two little sisters. wish me luck, i'm jaaaaaaaaaasmine :)

love to all

shae.payday.maylay (melee i think is the real spelling...)

life is sexually transmitted and always fatal

song of the day: a song the world can sing out loud by change of pace

k, so the song of the day is one i came across on the lovely pandora.com which i love to death... its internet radio where you say well i really like here it goes again by ok go, so you type that in and it will generate similar songs... then you can add more artists and songs for variation! its sweeeeeet. so anways, sweet song. not just the music, i like the words too. epicness.

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so, easter. wheeeeeeel, we had some stuff at home (egg hunt and reading crucifixion etc), then we went up to a local church for an egg hunt, then we went to my grandmas for ANOTHER egg hunt and food. it was pretty fun. we got to play kickball at my grandmas which was crazy awesome ( heehee i'm such a kid!) and we had icecream with strawberries (real ones, not the kind you get in a jar). and now here i ammm! oh yes, i got a new ring (yesh!) and leah (my sister) got the same one so we've been doing wonder twin powers, activate! all day :) if you dont know what that is, dont ask me. my dad just talks about old cartoons all the time and i guess thats one of them. whatever dad. he's nuts, i swear! he's an incredible singer, he really is... majored in voice actually but never chose to further it which sux cuz he could have been the next josh groban and i could have... well, what, popular friends? expensive clothes? *realization hits me in the forehead like a hammer* i dont want fame. i love my life. i love my friends. i love my house. i love my boxes of notebooks. i love my cat. i love my bed. i love the 50 cent rings on my fingers! so forget it. sorry guys, i tend to think out loud.deal with my randomness or stop reading :).

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pray for my little cousin~please! now i have to start at the beginning i guess cuz this is complicated... so my mother adopted brother from korea (my uncle) had a girlfriend. she got pregnant, he left, we still consider the girl (sophie) to be our cousin and my grandparents consider her to be their grandbaby. with that said, let me also mention that her mom is... okay i'll just be blunt, she is up to her chin the the occult and is a self-declared wiccan and sells spiritually charged amulets on ebay O.o i know. AND sophie lives in a house with all smokers. one of whom (grandma shirley she calls her) had cancer behind her eye and has had it removed. now sophie has seen the black socket where the eye used to be and according to miracle (the mother) it doesnt bother the kid. yeah right. let me also add that this little girl was pantzed at school by some pig-boy a couple weeks ago and is terrified of him. she is in second grade. now to the worst of all part... this little girl is so stressed, she litterally tore out her eye lashes and eyebrows... she RIPPED OUT HER HAIR so that she has bald spots on her head. she's hurting herself at 8 years old!!!!!! my heart just hurts for her... she's so young... please pray for her! she needs it right now... we're going to have her over tuesday night hopefully so she can get away for awhile, but one night wont make it all better :,(. i love you sophie...

love to you all

shae

how things change...

guess what? MY CAMERA IS WORKING!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY! happy happy happy! so i went upstairs and genuinely apologized to my sister and family for being such a butt and being grouchy and explained to abby that accidents happen and i forgave her... then, my mom put new batteries in it and it worked! maybe i just needed to apologize... or maybe the batteries just were dead. will i ever know? prolly not. but now i feel like blogging a bit so i'm stealing something from opendiary.com, there theme for the week is
"what song do you never what to hear again"
between with you by chris brown, poker face by lady gaga, and nothin to lose by josh gracin. the first is simple... kind of. my first boyfriend told me that they wrote that song for us, he loved me, and crap like that but then he was an idiot so i dumped him. the thing is, the song isnt happy or sweet for me anymore, its sad because i remember him and that he wasnt always a retard... yes he was. no.yes. stupid arguements with myself ensue and so i just hate it. the next one is poker face which i hate first of all bcuz its sick, and second of all because it was played on virtually every station for soooooo long! the last one is nothin to lose by josh gracin (country, agh) its a cute song, it really is... but me, my mom, and my sister danced to it at a local talent show last summer so its all i heard inthe month leading up to the show! my feet still try to dance every time i hear it. barf.

time to color eggs, wish me luck in the kingdom of Upstairs... funny, that rhymes with Despair..
love to all
shae

not gonna lie...

song of the day: dont ask me by ok go
<--- i have a problem, my pics are never from the song of the day.. why? i dunno
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i shoulllld be happy~ its rainy and cool and lovely... i have a bag full of little candies... i have a plate full of my decorated cookies... i have a camera full of pictures... thats just it. the camera. my darling dearest youngest demoness friend.... whoops, i mean SISTER there... dropped my camera and it is broken. totally pissed off about that, i'm not gonna lie. let me vent for a few moments ppl, k? k. so i'm going on a trip to cali and AZ and the grandcanyon and the ocean four days after spring break... and i was planning on doing like a photo diary of it ( with my new 4 gig card!) but there goes that idea. i take pictures all the time. not that i'm any good at it, just because i enjoy capturing my life in pictures... sometimes its easier than words. not to mention the fact that this is my third camera in two years that has broke ( 1. randomly died for no reason 2. i tripped up some stairs and fell on it 3. lovely sister dropped it). *sigh. i dont want to talk about this anymore.... :(


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changing subjects... to what? not sure... uhhhhh any ideas? let me think, how about this


THINGS I SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW


1. preparing to lead worship for the kids tonite


2. straightening my hair


3. reading my book report book


4. practicing dance


5. telling my darling sister that its okay and i'm not too mad *ahem lying ahem*


6. throwing my shorts in the wash so i can wear them to church


7. closing my window since i'm not allowed to have it open and my parents could come down at any moment


8. ??????????


whatttttttteeeeeevvvvvvvveeerrrrrrrrrr!


trying to chill... trying to think of Jesus... trying to breathe... trying to smiiiiiiiile


shae

makes me smile

song of the day: here it goes again by ok go <--- sweet music vid by the way :)

(ironically, the pic there is from here in your arms... call it ADD)

things that made me smile today:

1. waking up and realizing that my left hip was sore and that i had grass stains on my knees... then remembering why :)

2. eating something other than rice and beans for dinner (loooooong story)

3. climbing the tree in my backyard

4. being able to dance again... i twisted my ankle doing something dumb on monday and its now better! (i guess it was better yesterday too since i ran around on the hill with no problem at all)

5. waking up at 6 out of habit, then looking at my clock, turning over and going back to sleep

6. running barefoot in the grass

7. eating a blue rasperry dum dum as i type this... (yes, i'm easy to make happy)

8. phoenix axe (later... i will explain later....)

9. I HAVE A DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR AND WALLS!!!!!!!!!!!

10. playing dolls with my little next door neighbor

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i prolly could have gone on for awhile there, i smile alot... but let me explain a few things. firstly, the rice and beans are really a product of my parents craziness, altho the idea was pretty cool. anyways. they decided that we should eat only beans and rice from morning till 5:30 at night to get an understanding of people in third world countries, let me tell you after 2 meals and every snack needed , i may never eat beans or rice again... for dinner we had soup and fruit salad which seemed like the best EVER. secondly, phoenix axe. *sigh and smile* i'm sorry, this is so typical airhead teenage girl but the stuff smells niiiiiiice! k, i know you're wondering how the cookies did a girl get guys axe, right? yeah. so i was talking to my homebro the other day and i was like duuuuuude what is that smell, is that you?it smells great! and he was like my axe... and i was like i'm gonna steal it! and he was like you can have my old can, i just got a new one. so now i have a couple of ounces of man smell. one of my several weaknesses... and it makes me happy. embarrasing yes, but part of the reason i started blogging again was to spill it all here and loose dumb secrets like that somewhere in the mix.

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i think i might work on a new blog heading tonite... havent decided yet. i get easily bored and i'm sick of seeing the same pic. so by the time you read this, i may just have a new top picture thing.

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i started/finished wintergirls by laurie halse anderson today... it was so good, but so sad... the author is incredible, she writes very metaphorically, almost like poetry, and the plot was so morbidly fascinating i couldnt put it down. for those of you who havent read it, let me give you a brief summary. This girl's friend dies and the girl takes it really hard... also, she's anorexic and shutting everyone out, and cuts herself sometimes.... i'll stop there bcuz you need to read it yourself, but let me just say it was one of those books that makes you think, not just a fun read, an eyeopening read.

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well, i must away to the world of Upstairs where the Parents rule like tyrants and i simply try to stay out of the way (mostly, unless i'm feeling bad then i'll throw noodles at someone or something, i'm unpredictable...)anways, Upstairs. Wish me luck my lovely blogger friends!

love.peace.joy.andabigbowlofrasperrysherbert

shae